Jimmy Eat World | The Middle
Bleed American (2001)
Hey, you know they’re all the same.
You know you’re doing better on your own, so don’t buy in.
Live right now.
Yeah, just be yourself.
It doesn’t matter if it’s good enough for someone else.
Yesterday was my last day of work ;A; I’m going to miss everyone so much and the banter we have everyday. I’ll see most of them before I leave, but though I’ve only been there 7 months, it’s strange to leave this part of my life behind.
So why am I leaving? Because… I’m moving to Korea at the end of the month! I’ll be teaching in Jeju City :D
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Would anyone like to make an important life decision for me?
I got a job offer today with a school in Jeju (one of my desired locations), but it isn’t a government school, though the hours are normal (10-6). It looks like a really cute little place, and it’s a building set on it’s own rather than a random office block as hagwons usually are. The director was lovely and welcoming on the phone, and I like the sound of the style of teaching. However, it’s mainly kindergarten kids and also the pay isn’t as good as on govt schools (but that’s not my main concern).
I have a very helpful and nice guy with another agency who’s put me forward for a lot of good seeming govt schools in places I like, but I’ve not had an interview yet (should hopefully in the next few days though). Schools don’t wait around though, so I have to make a decision fast.
Kindergarten wasn’t my first choice, but as I say the set-up seems pretty good, and also teaching a class of a maximum of 10 kids is tempting. I know the job security, pay and holidays are better in a govt school though, and generally there’s more of a chance to feel part of the school and have more input in classes.
I’m really stuck. I just hope I get an email from the other agency within the next day or so, so I can weigh up my options. I’m not sure how long the school will wait.
Would anyone have any advice?
I think all of those things are maybe less than 40% of what a person “is” and most of what a person is is how they relate to other people in conversation and how thoughtful they are and also like what they’re doing with their career and what their ambitions are and how they present themselves and how they think about other people and their relation to other people and their place in the world.
And I feel like nerd culture pretends that who you are is the media you consume and everything else about you doesn’t matter and people let their bodies and personalities and minds go to shit and they get this hivemind personality spoon fed to them from a fucking internet community and they let that control their life.
They let reddit turn them into a MRAs and they let tumblr turn them into an SJWs and they let big bang theory turn them into a faux geek. They let the most powerful media presence in their life decide the kind of personality they have and then that prevents them from adjusting their personality in a way that might make it fall outside of the template they’ve been given by the media they consume. I think that assuming the media you consume is your personality pre-empts any analysis or reflection on your own real life personality and how that affects your real life happiness and goals.
People watch High Fidelity and think it’s cool to be a jerk like Jack Black and then they do that and then no one likes them and then they’re sad that no one likes them but they don’t consider not being a jerk because they’re doing exactly what the movie said so they assume it’s everyone else’s fault and they become misanthropic. Really any media or community or culture predicated on the idea that “everyone else is dumb and will never understand me” sort of has this built in pre-emptive defense against self-reflection and that’s really fucking disgusting.
this is a good thoughtful post
I think about this a lot because I can see why some people choose to define themselves based on the media they consume (moral messages, escapism through fantasy etc) but when that starts to develop into a literal coping mechanism for understanding the world, while being fuelled by hivemind fandom mentality, is when it can become problematic
The example that keeps ringing in my head is a post I saw a while ago of someone talking about their depression, that someone had reblogged saying something like “this is me when Destiel isn’t canon”.
A person literally saw someone publicly opening up about their debilitating mental struggle, and decided it equated it to their problems with their fictional OTP and then decided it would be an even better idea to share that in a place where the original poster would very definitely see it
Like, stuff like that makes me wonder where the turning point was where media obsession replaced the thought process in someone’s mind that would normally make them wonder “wait is this actually a really shitty thing to say?”
Obviously this doesn’t apply to everyone who likes a thing, but the fact that there are still plenty of people who would (and do) jump to defend that behaviour is troublesome to me
Today you can see that I am alive. I can speak, I can see you, I can see everyone. It’s just because of the prayers of people. Because all people — men, women, children — all of them have prayed for me. And because of all these prayers God has given me this new life . a second life. And I want to serve. I want to serve the people. I want every girl, every child, to be educated.
15-year-old Pakistani MALALA YOUSUFZAI, an outspoken advocate for girls’ rights who was shot in the head by the Taliban.
For someone who can be an introvert, I really do love socialising. After work a few of us went to the pub across the road at the suggestion of one of the newer guys who wanted to get to know everyone better. People are just so very interesting. He was talking about how he went swimming under a castle in Slovenia (somewhere I’ve wanted to go for a few years now), a girl mentioned that she’s dubious of the missionary position (after watching a horror film she shouldn’t have when she was a kid, and a guy turned into a demon while having sex with a girl), and also the guy who traveled mentioned his disasterous blind dates, one of which involved a girl who showed him her photo album of the potatoes she collects. Just, a bunch of silly and interesting stories. People have so many idiocyncracies that I find really marvelous. I can so often just drift through my weeks without giving someone my full attention or thought, or without having daft but somehow in-depth conversations like these. Life can seriously be as interesting as books and films, and I need to remember that.
Also, I bumped into a bunch of people I went to Japanese class with (they kept it up, but I stopped going because I was unemployed at the time) and they were having a Japanese pub quiz upstairs so I caught up with a few of them.
Life = good
There are 7 billion people on this planet who I have not met,
and 195 countries I have not visited.
Yet I am stuck in this insignificant town,
Being pressured into making decisions about my future,
When I barely even know who I am
I’m not anyone’s first choice. I’m not anyone’s favorite. People may tell me I mean a lot to them and that I’m special to them but I know there’s someone they will always choose over me.
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